So, I thought I'd like to write a blog to help me get through my latest 2ww which is as a result of my second IVF treatment. I had 2 embryos transferred last Saturday so I'm now 8 days past a 3 day transfer. All was going so well until I started spotting. TMI alert!!! I had brown spotting but only when I wiped, but then after going out for a walk, there was bright red blood. Needless to say. my mood plummeted but now again there is nothing.
So what should I make of this? It could be embryo implanting - I'm being positive. It could be from my plump uterine lining - I'm being positive. It could be because my cervix is affected by all the drugs - I'm still being positive..... BUT......what if it's because the embryos haven't implanted and so my lining is now disintegrating???
And what can I do about it?! Absolutely nothing! Well, I could test...... Should I test? No, I won't test, I'll wait till OTD on Friday. Well at least until Wednesday because I'll know by then that it'll work with an early response test. In fact, don't they work 4 days early? So I could test tomorrow. But what if I test and it's negative. How will I feel? Will I be convincing myself I tested too early and that I'll be fine? Will I plummet further downhill with my mood?
And so the endless questioning continues. If you've been through or are still experiencing this unfair condition, then you'll know all about this!
This week I will find out if I will ever be a biological mother and I'm terrified but I had to try again; to give it my one last shot.
Keep your fingers crossed for me guys and I'm sending baby dust your way.
Until next time
Lou x
